It was my intention to return to Podcasting in September when I return back to blogging again. However, having mulled it over, and for lots of reasons which I will explain some of in moment, I have decided that I am going to take a break from Podcasting for the foreseeable future.
I am so sorry to be taking this decision, for you and for me and for the reasons that I have come to this decision.
The final thing that has made me decide this is something that I haven't mentioned on the Podcast before, but which I have mentioned on the blog before.
We are once again dealing with new and further issues with Man. If you don't know, Man is a relative who we have to care for and we care for him willingly, but it takes up a lot of time, physically and mentally as I expect that some of you also know.
What has happened is a further, but rather more dramatic, decline in his capabilities and this will lead to the need to spend ever more time with him. This isn't a problem, and as I said we are glad to do it, but...... Although some of you say that you don't know how I do it, and I do do a lot of things, there are limits to even what I can achieve and this is my limit!
I am sure that the issues with Man can and will be worked around, but until we work out the new issues and how to handle them things will be up in the air and time will be short once again.
Before that though I had, if I am honest, felt a little disheartened that there were not more people interested in the Podcast and interacting back and forth. One of the reasons I keep blogging is the interaction, and I think that I would rather concentrate my efforts in fewer places more successfully than spread myself too thin and not give blogging and/or podcasting all that it deserves.
I feel that the unsuccessful interaction is down to me perhaps not interacting enough. I don't know if I am not entertaining enough, or interesting enough! Perhaps I say um or so too much. I have tried getting in touch with other podcasters, and apart from some kind words from one person I haven't had any feedback or interest or interaction really.
That is all OK, really, it hasn't taken off for whatever reason, and with time being limited again now I need to focus on the successful and interesting things rather than those which give me less pleasure and which I feel give you less pleasure too.
Podcasting is also difficult for me because I have limited physical space and it takes the best part of the day to move everything around, record and then put everything back again. Then it takes a whole day to upload to you tube. If I then want to improve the Podcast by doing some editing - which I suspect is what it needs - that will probably take a further day.
The time issue was really what got me thinking about this as since I have been on a blog and Podcast break I have had so much more time. With the issue with Man coming up again and knowing that time was already tight and will get tighter something that takes a day a week has to come to a stop for now at least.
I am sad that I will not be Podcasting as I think that I was starting to get less nervous finally and I have lots of lovely things to share with you. I will share those here on the blog in September and perhaps later in August instead and when/if I return to Podcasting I will just share whatever I am working on then. What will definitely still be doing is watching others Podcasts as and when I have time.
So that is it really. Sad in lots of ways because of the unsuccessful venture and because of the decline for Man but it is what it is and just because one door closes doesn't mean it will not open again - as my friend Gina will tell you - or that some other door will not open either.
I will continue with the blog and with Instagram, I will also continue to design and sell my patterns and my Etsy shop will remain open, although I don't know if I will restock it because I am struggling to generate sales there too and again I think I would prefer to concentrate on patterns.
Perhaps I have run before I could walk, perhaps I have taken on too much, in my darker moments I imagine perhaps I am just not popular for some reason. Whatever the reasons it doesn't really matter because I really believe two things. That if you don't try you won't know, and I have tried and know I know. The other is that I never have regrets. I might not do the same thing again - there are loads of things I have done that I will never do or certainly will try never to do again - but that doesn't mean that the thing I did was bad. I don't regret it, I will just change things going forward.
So onwards, upwards, positive and stronger I go.
Can you perhaps do something for me? If you do hear mention of my podcast can you let me know and can you let the person who mentions it know that I am on a break. I would like to know what if any feedback I could get because as I said, if I do return I obviously need to do things differently, but I need to know what has to change.
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