OK, this is not the most cheery post. I seems as though they have been few and far between recently. Sometimes life really is a (%&£!)^$£)&^! isn't it. I tried really hard NOT to post this, but every time I try and e-mail the people that I want to share this with my e-mails get eaten by my computer before I can press send. So I am doing what I didn't want to do and posting this blog post instead.
I just wanted to explain my absence, it is pet related due to my parents dog Truffle. Last week she became unable to eat, use her throat, swallow, basically unable to control or use any muscles in her head and mouth. After lots of investigations, it seemed that she has some sort of infection or disease that is very rare (apparently only the sixth case ever seen at the veterinary hospital) and is life threatening because Truffle cannot eat and so on. She has been getting the very best possible treatment - all the staff and vets have been truly wonderful - and time alone will tell, but it hasn't been looking at all good. However, today a small miracle seems to have occurred. Truffle has been receiving some steroid treatment and she has finally managed to eat - very very slowly and very very messily some practically liquid food. Earlier in the week, we were considering the worst, and now there is a little light.
As you can imagine I have been rather preoccupied with all of that rather than blogging and I expect that I will continue to be for a while yet.
On top of this we have just heard that a relative is very ill in hospital and make also not make it, although at this stage we really do not know, but I am hoping for the best possible outcome.
Today I came to the conclusion that getting older is no fun. It seems like the older you get the more horrible (that isn't the word that I used when I said this out loud) things happen in life.
The last 12 months have been totally rubbish and I am aware that my blogging has at times reflected that. I always try to be honest and open here and tell things like they are, for good and bad. However, I have decided to change that at least about these two things. I have decided that I am NOT going to post about this again but if I am not around or disappear at least you know the reasons why.
I am well aware that you have your own trials and tribulations that you may or may not care to post about, and I am happy to read them and offer support if you wish to share, or to respect your privacy if you prefer not to share. Please don't think that I am saying that you should or should not share - heck, I share a lot! - I just wanted to explain and say that in this I won't be sharing again.
Take care of yourselves and know that I am thinking of you all and hoping for the best for your own problems and always here to listen if you need to share.
The most important thing of all though seems to be to never give up hope. We never know what will happen next, and, as I said in my post yesterday, I hold on to Rudyard Kipling's words, "and so hold on when there is nothing in you except the will which says to them "hold on". Hold on to hope and I hope that hope will bring you what you need.
Thank you as always for your support.
Love Amy xx