Thursday, 14 August 2014

Not sure what to say!

OK, this is not the most cheery post.  I seems as though they have been few and far between recently.  Sometimes life really is a (%&£!)^$£)&^! isn't it.  I tried really hard NOT to post this, but every time I try and e-mail the people that I want to share this with my e-mails get eaten by my computer before I can press send.  So I am doing what I didn't want to do and posting this blog post instead.

I just wanted to explain my absence, it is pet related due to my parents dog Truffle.  Last week she became unable to eat, use her throat, swallow, basically unable to control or use any muscles in her head and mouth.  After lots of investigations, it seemed that she has some sort of infection or disease that is very rare (apparently only the sixth case ever seen at the veterinary hospital) and is life threatening because Truffle cannot eat and so on.  She has been getting the very best possible treatment - all the staff and vets have been truly wonderful - and time alone will tell, but it hasn't been looking at all good.  However, today a small miracle seems to have occurred.  Truffle has been receiving some steroid treatment and she has finally managed to eat - very very slowly and very very messily some practically liquid food.  Earlier in the week, we were considering the worst, and now there is a little light.

As you can imagine I have been rather preoccupied with all of that rather than blogging and I expect that I will continue to be for a while yet.

On top of this we have just heard that a relative is very ill in hospital and make also not make it, although at this stage we really do not know, but I am hoping for the best possible outcome.

Today I came to the conclusion that getting older is no fun.  It seems like the older you get the more horrible (that isn't the word that I used when I said this out loud) things happen in life. 

The last 12 months have been totally rubbish and I am aware that my blogging has at times reflected that.  I always try to be honest and open here and tell things like they are, for good and bad.  However, I have decided to change that at least about these two things.  I have decided that I am NOT going to post about this again but if I am not around or disappear at least you know the reasons why.

I am well aware that you have your own trials and tribulations that you may or may not care to post about, and I am happy to read them and offer support if you wish to share, or to respect your privacy if you prefer not to share.  Please don't think that I am saying that you should or should not share - heck, I share a lot! - I just wanted to explain and say that in this I won't be sharing again.

Take care of yourselves and know that I am thinking of you all and hoping for the best for your own problems and always here to listen if you need to share.

The most important thing of all though seems to be to never give up hope.  We never know what will happen next, and, as I said in my post yesterday, I hold on to Rudyard Kipling's words, "and so hold on when there is nothing in you except the will which says to them "hold on".  Hold on to hope and I hope that hope will bring you what you need.

Thank you as always for your support.

Love Amy xx

66 comments:

  1. My dear girl, what a rotten time you are having. Sending positive thoughts for Truffle and your parents- what a worrying time for them, and for your relative and also for you xx

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  2. No, getting older is no fun. Take care Amy.

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  3. Thank you for sharing your troubles, I hope it has helped, sending you a virual {{{{{hug}}}}},

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  4. Sending my love and support Amy to you and yours.

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  5. Oh Amy, I am so sorry for everything you are having to deal with, it really does seem that sometimes when it rains, it pours. Keeping everyone in my prayers.

    Hugs,
    Sandra
    xoxo

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  6. Fine sentiments Amy - I know what you mean about this year! So sorry about both pet and relative situations. Keep positive although I know it's so difficult sometimes. Lots of love to you. XXX

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  7. Take good care...
    Indeed, getting older has way more downsides than advantages... Just try to keep your head up - it gets a little bit more bearable if you try to stay positive... (Believe me, I know...)
    A big hug to you !
    Xxx

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  8. As you know we are going though 'doodah' too...have been for while,and will continue to for the time being.
    You help..your blog helps. If we can help in return,let us know.
    HUGS
    Jane x

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  9. Hold on, Amy... and see you back here when you can x

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  10. Hope that by writing this post it is making you feel better. Fond wishes and hope everything picks up for you soon. Getting old is no joke, we are trying to do it gracefully. Sending you a hug.

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  11. Echoing the above comment - always here to help and listen if I can - as you have been for me. xx

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  12. So sorry that all is not well Amy. Please keep positive and remember your blogging friends are here to listen. As you know we've just been through a difficult time in our household and keeping in touch with blog friends is a comfort. xx

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  13. Amy, dear Amy, yes you have been through so much and I applaud you for being honest, I like that in a blog as you can tell as I try to be honest too. I am keeping you all in my thoughts, you, your Mom, Truffle and your family member. Life is not a bit easy is it?
    Hugs,
    Meredith

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  14. Hey Amy,
    Life can be a challenge sometimes. And it's fine to have a bloggy yell from time to time. I'm an expert at it. I'm thinking of you and your family members and Truffle. What a rotten do. Chin up lovely girl
    Leanne xxxx

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  15. As you put it Amy, hold onto hope and hope for the best. Sending you a hug. Xx

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  16. Oh Amy I am so very sorry to hear this about your lovely Truffle-I do hope that things will continue to improve for her, it is heartbreaking to see a beloved pet in distress. I hope also that there will be better news about your relative. Life is a tapestry of ups and downs for sure and it can really help to share your thoughts. You must treat yourself very kindly in these difficult times -thinking of you , Alison xx

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  17. Oh Amy, I'm so sorry that Truffle has been so ill, and also that a family member is so unwell. I do hope things take a turn for the better soon. You're in my thoughts. CJ xx

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  18. Take care, Amy!
    Thinking of you,
    Ingrid x

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  19. So sorry to hear you are going through such a difficult time Amy, I will be thinking of you xx

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  20. I'm sorry you're going through a hard time. Take care.

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  21. Amy, so sorry about your relative and your parents' dog. Yes, as we get older, our friends and relatives are also getting older, so it seems we start having more and more of these experiences. It's a bummer, but I have a saying printed and framed on a table in my living room: We cannot direct the wind, but we can adjust our sails. It helps me a lot and I hope you will find comfort as well. But sometimes, even when we're staying very positive for the most part, we have days where it's best to just come out and call it a rotten day! ~ Hugs, Jean

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  22. Amy Im sorry you had a hard time hope all be better!
    Hugs
    xo

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  23. What rotten luck - things seem to come together dont they? So sorry you are having a tough time, big hugs x

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  24. Sending prayers your way, Amy....it's difficult to go through what you are going through. Thinking of you. Your blog and your blogging friends will still be here when you are ready to post again. xx

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  25. Hi Amy, I'm sorry for the troubles you're going through right now and hope all will be well soon and that you will be able to continue blogging in the near future. Blessings and hugs. Pam

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  26. Hugs and prayers to you - you do whatever feels right for you. Yes, life is complicated and a challenge. Take as much time as you need.

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  27. I understand the stress/concerns you have and we all understand that you are needed elsewhere at present. We will be waiting for you.

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  28. Hi I wish you lots of luck with everything and hope it is a good outcome. Take care.
    Julie at Julie's Lifestyle

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  29. I know that you've only popped into my blog just recently, but do know where you are coming from with what seems to happen as we age. We've also had a pretty yuk year so far, but I suppose this all about life. We'll all still be here at the end of our computers and we're thinking of you and sending our heartfelt thoughts. Take care.

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  30. Amy, I am so sorry about Truffle and your relative's illnesses. It's heartbreaking and I hope and pray for recovery for both.

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  31. Sorry Amy - life is really hard sometimes. Praying for you tonight.

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  32. Amy.....I am sending you love and prayers right now. You are right. Getting older blows...seriously....just so much happens and it does feel like a bit of a roller coaster at times. A friend of ours with 2 small children who is just about to turn 40 is dying of cancer. I have known her since I was 18.....She is amazing and so is her husband. She has been through so much in her life and there are just no words for all of this. Hope. It is a good thing to have and so is thankfulness. Stay strong friend. I am here for you. Nicole xoxo

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  33. I am sorry to hear you are going some rough patches right now. Take some time for yourself . Chris

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  34. Hugs, Amy........to tell the truth, I would much rather read a blog where the blogger was totally honest than some beautiful perfect image of perfect kids, perfect health, perfect life. We are all there to support you and when you post, we'll be here to lend a shoulder if needed, and a whole lot of encouragement and love.

    Take care of yourself. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts!

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  35. Hello Amy. Sorry to hear you're having such a hard time of it. You've sent me some really supportive messages lately and I appreciate that. I also know how difficult it can be deciding how much to blog about. If you're wary of turning your blog into a big continual rant (that's what I worry about with mine) then yes, take a step back and speak to those close to you, take time out, whatever helps. I hope things get better for you (they WILL) and if you want to email me directly to let off some steam please do.
    Sarah xx

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  36. Amy, I'm so sorry for your loved one in the hospital and your family pet.. I will keep both in prayer, and I will pray for you as well, because that's what friends are for! and you know... yes, sometimes life completely sucks, but sometimes, more often than not, it's completely awesome! I've followed you for some time now and I love your honesty and I love that you blog with love and honesty, it makes me feel good knowing that there are others out there that go through things just like I do, your honesty makes me feel normal! thank you for that Amy, you are a gem!
    I hope you have peace this weekend,
    Tammy x

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  37. Difficult times, Amy, and I am so sad for Truffle and your sick relative. I absolutely understand how these things can affect us, and I will be thinking of you. Feel free to blog or not blog - support is always here when you feel like venting. Take a break when you need to. I agree, as we get older, big stuff seems to happen. Interestingly, though, as we have waded through the big stuff over the past 10 years, I have found myself changing too. More able to cope with the life and death stuff, and more serene about life's difficulties. You are an artistic and sensitive soul - Hugs, P. xx

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  38. Hugs from me to you, Amy. I'm sure we all can relate to what you're going through right now - I know I can! I hope things get better really soon for you and all around you.

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  39. Sending you lots of love & big hugs, lovely - it's ok to be sad & to share as you feel led so thank you for sharing this story with us. Poor Truffle, I know how heart-breaking it is to see one of our beloved furry creatures in pain.
    Take care of you,
    love Gilly xx

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  40. My brother-in-law loves to inform me that life is absolutely wonderful when you are old - I couldn't disagree with him more. There is of course a sense of freedom, pleasing yourself what you do and when you do it, but that is dependant on the important fact that you are fit and well and also have good finances in place to be able to do it.
    I am really sorry to hear about Truffle and your relative too, and hope that in time the news on both counts will be a positive outcome♡

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  41. Dear Amy
    I really hope things start to improve for you all now. Best wishes for Truffle's recovery.
    Best wishes
    Ellie

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  42. Hi I just wanted to say thank you for your lovely comments on my blog.
    I'm sorry to read about your troubles and hope life gets better soon
    Take care
    Jackie x

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  43. Amy, your post does resonate as I've often felt like this too. Getting older isn't fun especially as we start to lose those close to us, friends family or pets it is always difficult. But there are lots of good things too and this feeling too will pass. Thinking of you. x

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  44. So sorry for all that you are going through. Sometimes there is just nothing to say, the heart is empty and the words don't come. Always be real. Some will appreciate that and some will walk away like the book says, "For those who are broken and those who pretend they are not," we all need someone to listen and not judge from time to time. Blessings, my friend.

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  45. So sorry you have been going through difficult times, Amy. I hope that poor Truffle continues to improve. Wishing you well, and hoping all the troubles soon resolve and things get better. Sending love.
    Helen xox

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  46. It may be a trite saying, but do remember that where there is life there is hope!!
    I hope all turns out well, Anne

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  47. Dear Amy,
    I'm so sorry for your troubles and hope things pick up soon. You never know what's round the corner indeed, whether pleasant or not. I once read this quote from a modern Buddhist who said: "you can't stop the waves, but you can learn how to surf." I take this to mean: roll with the punches, take things in your stride - deal with one thing at a time with your full attention.
    All the very best to you there xxx

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  48. Sorry Amy, just catching up-hope Truffle has been comfortable over the last couple of days, fingers crossed eh.
    Oh my days you have had a time of it lately, be brave and remember it is your blog-sound off to your hearts content and more if it helps....people are generally quite understanding as you can see from all your wonderful comments, take heart from this.
    It doesn't quite seam right of me to mention the quilt museum in this same response--forgive? BUT it looks wonderful, been to the one in York (UK) very inspiring but not yet found the time to have a go.
    Take care and hope you are OK...

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  49. Oh my life does seem to really kick it out of us at times...only thing it seems to do is hold on like you said. I hope that everything works it way out, and for the best.

    Jen

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  50. You are right, never give up hope! Sending hugs your way.

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  51. Please Amy don't worry about sounding off, we all need to do it, releases the frustration and tension. It makes your blog real and it is comforting to others going through similar trials to know that they are not alone. Sending healing thoughts and prayers your way.

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  52. That's what writing does, helps you sort through all your feelings and frustrations. Poor Truffle. I sure hope she will be okay. We certainly never know what will happen from one day to the next but faith, hope and love will see us through. Wishing you and your family all the best, Tammy

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  53. I'm sure writing down your thoughts and feelings and sharing them with us have helped you cope at this uncertain and upsetting time. I hope Truffle will be well and improve each day. All you can do for your relative is hope and give support where you can - again I hope all will be well. Take care, Amyxxx

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  54. So sorry to hear about Truffle, pets are such a worry and little heart breakers too. I hope things pick up for you soon.

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  55. I'm sorry you're having such a difficult time Amy, I hope things take a turn for the better soon for you and your family. Take care.
    Jane xx

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  56. Sorry times are tough for you . It won't always be like this. Stay strong and take care.

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  57. I'm so sorry that you're having such a hard time with one thing or another at the moment. I do hope there is some good news on each situation. Sending lots of hugs.

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  58. Very sorry Amy for these difficult times - sometimes life is very cruel.
    My sister is about to lose her husband but he may need nursing care and she might lose her house and savings.
    You are right about age bringing problems - I just don't want to get old and that is it.
    So sorry Amy but I am there in spirit for you.
    Eddie x

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  59. I am very sorry to read about your sad news and to hear that your past year has been such a trying one. It sounds like so little, but I do hope that things start to look up for you Amy. No need to respond, you have enough to deal with right now.

    Take care,
    Karen

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  60. My husband and I say it to each other regularly - 'getting older is no fun'. So we're making the most of everything we have. I hope all goes well with you.

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  61. Sorry to hear things are tough at the moment, thinking of you, and hope that things work out for you xxx

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  62. We don't know each other, yet through blogs the world feels a little smaller. :) I just wanted to thank you for your kind comments on some of my posts and to send you best wishes for your family. It sounds like things will be a bit topsy turvy for a bit, but I hope that things turn out for the best very soon.
    All the best,
    Melanie

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  63. I'm just catching up here and am so sorry to read that you're having a tough time Amy. I do hope your relative and Truffle have both turned the corner and are on the mend. I'll be thinking of you x

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  64. Oh no, I am so sorry to read things are a bit tough Amy. Life is not easy at times and I don't think we can ever prepare ourselves for what might be in store. I often feel the same as you, the older I am getting the more worried and anxious I feel for the future. I struggle to live for the 'now' at times when I hear bad news. We have had a few sad things happen recently, my husband's granddad passed away last week and we have his funeral next week. It has really shook us up. My in laws also lost their pet dog the day before, that was sudden too. It all happened at once and I just thought how rubbish everything can be. But less of that, I really hope you will be okay Amy and I don't blame you for taking some time away if you need to. We all understand and we will be here when you return. I really hope your relative will be okay and that Truffle continues to improve. Big hugs. x

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