Last week I wrote about sharing things on blogs. Turns out, after turning myself inside out, and into 1000 different sorts of knots I just can't do it.
I have something to say, but I can't make it happen. Nothing terrible, just complicated and it makes me feel sick.
Even re reading that last paragraph makes me feel sick in case you think there is something wrong with me or something horrible going on. There isn't. I'm fine, just in a knot, and my jaw is aching, it does that when I am stressed.
I wrote a post, deleted it, and wrote another one, deleted it, wrote another one, scheduled it to post - 'cause I was too chicken to post straight away - went back, deleted it. Changed it to this. I'm writing this on Monday night - it is at least Tuesday morning when you are reading this. Wonder how many more times I might have changed it.
I think I have the answer. It isn't that I don't want to share, or that I don't have things to share, I just can't.
I will still talk lots though, and share all sorts of other stuff - decorating to come later this week! - but I can't share what I really want to tell you.
Perhaps that is what we suffer from. Not that we don't want to talk, we just can't when we want to.
*****************Before I left the house at 7am I stopped this post being published and reverted it to a draft. What a surprise!
I just read this post from Coal Valley View, and cried.
I still cannot say anything.
Today I was stressed, I laughed, I was upset, I was angry, then I was really angry, then I was furious (I left a little note on the car parked behind me that tried to park in my car, yes, in my car, it wasn't a very nice note, I'm not proud, I managed to say what I wanted to the driver of the car though) then I cried, and now I am here.
I'm not gonna apologise again, but if you are reading this and wishing that life didn't seem so rosy all the time in blogland, it isn't, and it isn't that we don't want to share, sometimes we just can't.
But know that we are here and will stay here if you need us. Bloggers are great!